What does it mean to heal?
Healing implies injury. Was I injured? After all, it was my baby that died, while I live on. So what were these injuries? Loss? Yes. Prolonged grief? Yes. Self esteem issues? Yes. Inability to connect with others? Yes. Loss of faith? Yes. Intrusive thoughts? Yes. Broken heart? Yes. Broken spirit? Yes.
So what is the best outcome for these injuries? Surely that the issues be resolved and the past laid to rest. And yet that is not what happened. I wonder then is healing really about living with the injury as one might live with a broken leg? Live with it, accept it, not hide it away but let it be seen, and deal with it day by day.